shit shit shit... so close yet so far.... anatomy is seriously just a bother. the list goes on forever. 10 Ways To Battle The Zzzz Monster if all fails, just go sleep. I'M TIRED Meet my Boyfriend
i'm so dead for anat.
how how how
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
9:05 pm
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guess what...i'm 3 days to my holidays.
in no mood to study for anat now...
just watched insideman and i swear i can't count the number of F words even with my toes...haha.
neither am i in the mood to blog... thus the random sentences...
oh well...i'm going off to stone somemore...
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
2:38 am
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by Pang Xiao Tian
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
3:44 am
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I MISS THE GOOD FOOD.
Food therapy's always the best to appease the pek chek soul. but what's left on the mountain are a few packets of chips, some cupnoodles and a packet of milk. Ai yah. i wish they'll start opening some restuarants in NTU.
The maths and chemistry's killing me. the more i look at it, the more peh chek i get. 我要杀人!
I haven been exercising...other than tackling tutorials i've never seen before, camping at the table, fighting the zzz monster and climbing steep learning curves. haha i'm now a big lump of fat that no amount of lingual lipase, pancreatic lipase or brush border enzyme can digest.
I'm going to hit the BIG 20 in well erm 2 exam papers and many torturous mugging sessions' time. how come i don't get birthday wishes. i'll wish the exams away.
Alrights i'm off to kill more neurons.
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
1:15 pm
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it seems like every freaking day i wake up to there's always so much to do. i'm tired of pretending to go ard like i'm able to cope with everything.
i hardly even feel like starting to study for exams. i can't believe it's only 10 freaking days away and i still have 2 lab reports, 1 assignment, 1 quiz to study for. i sit through lesson half of the time not knowing what the teachers are talking about.
just kill me now. i'm never going to finish studying anyway.
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
3:34 am
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hahahaha. i like my boys tall.
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
10:43 pm
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so where's the unicorn?!?!
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
4:23 pm
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i wish i could go. i'm up working now because i'm doing it for the people i love so so much. Xiaotian is extremely determined to pull up her socks! i just found motivation do my bio. 7 more days to exams... don't slack don't slack~ quiz quiz quiz exams exams exams. What is wrong with me? these days, random people's been asking me. "come into NTU so long...how come no boyfriend?" ... My Varsity Life-* The Pinkie Promise* my CHIO phone* 怎么隐藏我的悲伤 失去你的地方 awww. sleepy. Hi Miss Pang, i'm a JEDI! hee. the silly things we do at office. i was trying to look really fierce and serious but it ended up looking constipated=( keith help me edited the photo. designer edited! and i say he did a wonderful job. haha. i'm back and now i'm better! i'm waiting for my chocolate waffle. hurry hurry!
work's surprisingly quiet today. maybe cos all the volunteers aren't in today. so there's no one yelling over the playstation or throwing sweets at me or talking loud enough for me to evesdrop into. haha. tomorrow there's to be a stress management talk at a JC and i'm going with the team. i've 11 days more to get the catering done for a camp. busy busy. i want to take my half day off on wed or thurs! I believe what's mine will be mine.
Awww. apparently i'm tagged. so i'm suppose to state my 7 top qualities in my other half. man. but owing to the fact that my internship starts tomorrow and i'm busy reading up on some stuff... robbie says: today's last day of work. i'm going to be nineteen in a few days time. 周. 末. 是. 幸福的！ oh man. my previous entry sounds like some spoilt brat. haha. but come to think of it. i'm really quite spoilt by everyone. argh. the ylmp website is so screwed. i can't blog my reports on. 一路向北 (like literally) Malaysia, truly Asia - The KL Roadtrip! today a friend asked me, "why do we only learn when something really really bad happens" and only thing i could tell her was i really don't know. Yummy! i think i've grown up. from what i remember of myself in sec 1 till now. i used to think the world revolves around me. but now i know we all revolve around the world. i used to think if something bad happens to me, everything must cease to take place and the world's attention must be on me. but now i know the sun till shines, the sky doesn't fall down, the stars still twinkle. Baby Names i still did it for her la. -.-" wah. the malay woman's really the ultimate. the first day my boss is not here, she wants me to do spring cleaning and rearrange the compactor's room. do yoo know how big the room is?!?!?! and since when i become cleaner lady. 刮风着天我试过握着你手 meeting some people from the AIG insurance field in 45 minutes time. and i'm still typing the proposal. jiu mings lah. hee. thank yoo minling 我受够了等待 你所谓的安排 i was clearing my table for the weekend and just when i was almost done, there's another pile to be done. -_-" owwwww. i'm aching all over:( was feeling quite miserable in the morning cos it felt like someone whacked me with a baseball bat the night before. my butt hurts. *cries* but anyway. my day was greatly illuminated when i received a morning call from the greatest boss in the world, with his own rendition of lang man shou ji on the guitar, suffused with the Jay chou's signature forget-lyrics-then-sing-lalala style. but it was still nice and it's dedicated from the best person in the world to the second best person in the world! awww. life feels great to have such wonderful friends. wah. yoo made my day. Guozheng posted me a question on saturday: Presenting to yoo, Jim from Dreamz FM=) found a website where yoo can listen to albums after albums without having to pay/download or whatever. so i decided to try listening to joiln's concert recordings. then i realised the concert started with 3 songs Jay composed for her, ended with 2 others and had more in the middle. so one third of the songs she sang at her concert were by Jay! -_- 我的天空今天有点灰 back. listened to 家 the whole way back and forth. and i must now agree, the song is just brilliant. it isn't a song that attracts the very first time yoo hear it. but now it relates. morning. i'm sleepy. i think the cough medicine works too well it puts yoo in a coma at night. oh 浪漫手机 works wonders too. my 手机 turned 浪漫 overnight. zheng's back from field camp! i hope the rest come back soon too ^^ my hair's semi-straight =( the curls are disappearing but i know i've got nothing much to complain about cos i had them for a good three months. i'm in love with 南拳妈妈's 橘子汽水! the lyrics just makes yoo wanna go awwww... nothing much. WORK yoo know, when i was young, i used to think theme parks and fun fairs were magical places...cos that's where everyone feels happy and no one really feels sad (minus those few unlucky ones whose parents disallow candy floss of course) wahahaha...my parents condone candy floss...but they always chomp it up so fast i'm always left with whatever my tiny ten fingers could hold on to after the first grab. but i digressed. magical place...yes. i use to think at night... when all the little children goes home right then all the animals and rides will come back to life and woah! the whole place would just light up prettily and the music would play, the rides will spin and the fairies will come out to dance... haha childish right. but then i realise even now... my love for these places has never abated.(-_-" yoo can go ahead and say 'but yoo're still childish now what! that's why... 3 yr old') haha but i still love the place! i think it's so lovely i would have my guy propose to me there(if i can get married that is), like the whole place will suddenly dim and the rides will light up one by one until eventually the lightings on the ferris wheel will read "will yoo marry me?" (awwwww...i'm melting melting..hahaha) and have my wedding shots taken on a big carousel and with the pink vivacious dolphins... (of course if i ever get married) but arh... no lah...not Escape...i mean a BIG theme park, don't have to be Disneyland(though the fireworks part would be an added advantage ) but something to big enough to rival disneyland would be nice enough!!! hee=) okay...back to earth tian... after watching love concierge... i realise whatever Ru yi said is so true...a perfect wedding will never be possible without the perfect guy... and it's so hard to find the perfect guy out in the world then by the time yoo come across one...all these perfect wedding plans wouldn't really matter anymore... but it's always okay to have dreams right? 叶天喻：是因为你靠他靠得太近，他看不清楚你的好。你太方便了！ hello! my first day at work and i'm blogging! Friday the thirteen last time, when people use to tell me "i going for NS le..." my usual response would be "orh...byebye" now then i know how different it is, when my guy friends/ boyfriend get enlisted and how much i would miss them(those that are worth missing of course) it's like all the guys in my life disappeared... and as ailin puts it... "missing someone who cares" a few days ago...someone sent me a disheartening, accusing and preposturous letter. (feel free to ask me who! i'll enjoy telling a good story... don't want to offend anyone on my blog and end up being charged and in jail) 狼牙月 伊人憔悴 My wishlist to Santa! -- i think i've been a good girl this year=) okies! i found my beloved jay chou cd and my B'dazzle necklace... i'm jolly again! plus my cd has no cracks, tears or fingerprints... thanks jean! =( i'm depressed... i still cannot get over the photos... so i don't remotely feel like putting up any with my face facing the camera... will probably spoil the photo... A Bug's life i'm so bored!!!! i just copied out all the stored messages in my phone and cleared my inbox! no more scrolling scrolling to find any of those messages... haha... and my phone really feels lighter! new picture... the last was an embarassment... looking at her hair...i miss my long straight hair... ahhhhhh....cannot regret! i decided i wanted a change today and so i skipped over to Kimage and got myself a brand new look=) i drew a new picture... it's so not like that on my paper...but somehow after scanning and some resizing...it became this horrid... Guozheng's off to play soccer... with CJC somemore... oh well may the best team wins=) jia yoo guys! ooh...pretty pretty! i found a new girl to ooh and ahh at=) my frog show's ending this wednesday lah...i'm so depressed...why can't it go on forever? zheng's right...the most lousy thing about watching nice serials is that whenever it's going to end yoo'll feel so horrid inside! i read some article saying that kissing on screen is all about angles and direction.. i'm sure lah! where got so real... the angle thing is so anticlimax! i refuse to believe... *growl* i like my frog show... a certain someone claims my dang-ou looks like some guy from heartlanders... * complains* since when! my frog show guy is probably 10000000000000 times better looking! don't look like lah! when i find a photo of that irritating guy i'll prove yoo wrong! oh yea..i like her hair... maybe i'll go get one of those curlers for fun... oh well... i'm suppose to be studying for bio=( Guozheng says: as long as yoo are not the one getting sick... i'm suppose to be studying... but i got bored after a while! so i started looking for nice musical box=) i was wondering how come the keys look so weird...then i realised it's because of the reflection... i can manage by myself later... i don't know what i'm thinking about right now... i'm so confused... half of me wants monday to come...the other half doesn't... it's suppose to be a relaxing time for me... but instead i'm all tensed up and all frightened about monday... brainless activities like watching vcds after vcds doesn't seem to work... i can't really decide if i want to go on monday...pin jie's going.. jeremy too... i don't know why i'm feeling so scared... movies, lunch, pool, dinner, long walks in the park... things we haven had the luxury of doing for months=) i miss just walking beside him down orchard road. someone just messaged to say we are visiting shux next week... and that he has forgotten where the place is... it's end of prelims minus one paper...i'm trying to not get too excited else on thursday i would write zheng's name all over my exam script=) okok...no plans...focus! haha... i trembled all through maths and chem and maths lecture... zheng held my hand during lessons... and made me feel safe*pats chest*
sick AGAIN=( over the past few days, i've realised how important communication between 2 people is... 我不哭 因为我很勇敢
i'm looking for my courage to say sorry... i have been rather unproductive and off-task since i came home at 5...and i realise i can't really be jolly afterall... people are advising me to ignore those horrible words thrown at me...but it's kinda getting a little hard and somewhat out of hand...especially when it keeps occuring, right after yoo thought yoo've gotton over it... and all these seems to be eating into my studying hours... i really have had enough... yesterday night, someone said to me, something extremely terrible and without the least bit of tact... i slowly digested and thought it about through the long night (thus explains the tiredness in the morning)... i concluded that if no one else really thinks it's THAT much of a problem...i should try and not take one person's opinion that seriously... i'm sure there are people who will appreciate me in my good ways! right right? *asks ard eagerly* say YES! haha my bloggie's been lying idle... heh...so i've decided to do some vandalising! i went to watch School Of Rock with zheng today!! ...rather small scale and crowded... but concluding with what i could see...hmm it wasn't that great lah... zheng says the band we went down to support didn't perform as good as expected... but i thought the playing was good thought i didn't know what the singer was singing about...
i wish i didn't have to be reminded i can't
and i wish i could be braver than to cry.
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
2:46 am
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they are the people that make me whole, the people who make me feel like i'm a princess in their hearts, the people i would never ever want to see hurt, the people who will never ever leave my heart.
the people that motivates me to continue no matter how hard or tired i feel. the people whom i promise there will be no compromise.
every single one of yoo. thank yoo.
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no matter where yoo are my dear, yoo'll always be in yoor special corner in my heart. we may not talk as often, we may not meet as often. but yoo'll always be my princess, just like i'm one in yoor heart.
i like jay chou songs. because with yoo around, every time he sings 我想就这样牵着你的手不放开, i feel twice as 幸福. because i know yoo've got my hand and i've got yoors.
love ya, ailin.
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
6:22 am
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i haven been doing much work for the past two days cos i just didn't seem to be able to get anything in my head... it seems like so many things are happenning around me and seriously i have never thought about how some people can just be so unscruplous and malicious. it's quite terrifying... i can't imagine going to work in a society like that. My God. i wanna be a rich tai tai. hahahahahaha...
Food therapy was yummy yum yum. and i wanted to get more food back for cheryl... but i got no money then and i didn't want brendan to pay for it. and i forgot my solution again. ops=)
alrights. i shall start with my bio proper.
Fighto!
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
1:25 am
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it's like a horrid never-ending cycle.
Even machines breakdown sometimes.
On one side i like my uni life now... on the other, it sucks a lot because i don't get to meet ailin. don't get to listen to minling's lame jokes and shen yue is so far away... i use to think when i cannot go on any further... i'll always have ailin to seek strength and courage from. but it seems so hard to even just get to meet her nowadays... and i feel lousy because i cannot be there for her when she needs me. i'm being silly. but i sometimes worry while i'm stuck in a world of my own, people outside will forget i exist... then i'll end up losing my friends one by one...the thought of it is terrifying...it'll be another month before i get to see anyone...
oh well...who can i run to...
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
3:24 pm
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took the liberty to take some time off from school again...
i think i'm not in the state to do anything now...
argh.
buck up lah.
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
8:24 pm
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and my usual reply will forever be "没人要!"
hahahaha.
cheryl was just sharing with me about relationships and she said the start of one always requires a lot of time together, and then i asked her if she thought i could manage one now. she told me she didn't think so.
and now looking back, before uni started, so many pretty pictures were painted. that this and that will work out. and that time is not the key. sometimes it feels damn shit... when yoo feel like yoo're barely hanging in there and there's no one yoo can whine to, and he doesn't understand cos he's so far away from the social circle and worst still when yoo don't have the time to explain to him. now i hate calling anyone because i don't like hearing the dejected tone when i say i've got to go. it makes me feel super guilty to know i cannot spare more time for my friends.
afterall, not a lot of people will wait until 3 in the morning just to talk to their girlfriend, not having her company over weekends cos she has to study for tests, or when she's almost always preoccupied with other things or when dates are like rare occassions.
it's disheartening when ailin told me she hates this kinda life when it's so hard to just get together and meet. and i hate it just as much as she does.
it's so hard to find someone who understands, someone who really doesn't mind and a dependable shoulder to lean on.
and that is why i still waiting for Mr Right to appear.
does that answer the question?
and yes. i'm straight. oh man, i can't believe i have to say this... lol
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
7:44 pm
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and this the kinda hour my hall life ends at every single day.
hold on.
if yoo feel like letting go.
and i'm hanging by the moment.
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3:23 am
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huh. what life? hahaha. oh well. i can't believe i'm up at this holy hour doing maths tutorial. or rather trying to get started on my maths tutorial. but i'm blogging. oh dear.
i guess varsity and hall life started out with a great big bang for me. with kanza backing me up n everything i do, doing well in pageant, getting elected into Junior Common Room Committee.
well but not all is a bed of roses. i guess the only reason i'm alive and not chui already is the support and strength i'm drawing from all the people around me. i just can't imagine how i'm going to survive without them.
i haven been home much in like 3 weeks. cos i've been keeping up the i-love-hall-3 spirit by living in-hall over the past 2 weekends. oh well sarcrifices. wei ching's right. i cannot want so much without giving. with greater power comes greater responsibility.
i'm rather confused now. and suddenly uncertain about my ability to manage things. i know i can only thank one person for making my dance alright and believing in me that i have potential. but with JCRC and work can i cope?
alrights. back to maths tut. 2nd order ODE by variation of parameters. not forgetting the higher orders. if only they get as simple as macdonalds delivery orders.
some photos from pageant.
The previous hall queen looks like Da S(san cai) doesn't she?
My pillar of support. my partner=) his always asking me to calm down till now. he wakes me up for class in the morning too!
my dropping dress. haha.
there yoo go noche magica 2006
i love hall 3.
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
5:11 am
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Folks, i'm going off on a camp. yea yea. don't miss me too much yea? haha. actually i want to say it's really the other way round.
I'm going to miss you guys.
i don't know why but somehow as i tell myself to catch myself before i fall. i seem to be sinking in further.
可能是我的心真的不想再骗自己了
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
11:15 pm
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awww. it's so pretty=)=)=) and it's also white. even the back light is white!!!
i'm currently extremely contended with my life. i don't like changes.
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
2:52 pm
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你的发香散的匆忙 我已经跟不上
闭上眼睛 还能看见 你离去的痕迹
在月光下一直找寻 那想念的身影
如果说分手是痛苦的起点
那在终点之前我愿意再爱一遍
想要对你说的不敢说的爱
会不会有人可以明白
我会发着呆 然后忘记你
接着紧紧闭上眼
想着那一天会有人代替
让我不再想念你
我会发着呆 然后微微笑
接着紧紧闭上眼
回想那一年
你温柔的脸
在我忘记之前
i think everyone around me has enough worries weighing on their shoulders. i've got to be strong and learn how to appropriately control my emotions.
心里的眼泪 模糊了视线 你会看不见
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
1:09 am
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watched Garfield with people yesterday and awww. it's. so. cute. *quick quick! take a picture take a picture!!! AhhHhhH* hahahahhaa
my father likes the watch a lot a lot=) he was so cute yesterday, like a little boy. he wore it to sleep!
hmm. i'm really putting on weight working in the office. diet diet.
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
3:17 pm
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Here are yoor charges for yoor phone, telephone number, 92219720 for the months june 2006 to june 2008.
AND IT'S ALL YOOR FAULT BOSS! HAHAHAHAHA.
Met for dinner at cartel after my 1pm to 6 pm of intensive 3-kids-in-a-row tuition session. walked pass the M1 shop to realise that they had a 2 day brilliant promotion for the new samsung Z540 phone. Over dinner, boss calculated the cost briefly and thought it was really a good buy so he decided to go ahead with it.
Owing to the fact that it was 8 and he was dued for book in at 9 and the queue didn't look too promising, he asked me to signed up for him using his documents (really his secretary lah) So upon enquiry, we were told that he needed the ez link card and he passed me his debit card to pay the bill. However when it was finally my turn, the person at the counter told me i needed the 11B as well. without that i can either forget the offer or apply for the line under my name, with the billing address to my house. GREAT.
Now i have a first and new phoneline under my name, a sign of adulthood, and it's not even my line -.-
not to forget his bill comes to my house -.-"
*&%%#%@&%^*(&)_*)&*%##@#!
and this being a rather cantankerous period for me, i kicked up a fuss at the shop and fedback to them about the wrong info they gave us. the woman waived off the sim card fee. and i helped boss saved a grand total of $438 bucks!
Over the phone conversation we had just now:
tian: argh. yoor phone bill comes to my house lah. and now i cannot sign student plan because one student only entitled to one plan. then next month i how to get new phone?
boss: then i sign for yoo lor.
tian: then my phone bill how?
boss: my house lor.
-paused for a moment-
and both of us started laughing hysterically. HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAA.
every month the two of us can exchange phone bills -.-
boss: wah not bad. yoo helped me save $438 bucks eh.
tian: -smiles very sweetly- yea and i still have yoor GO! POSB debit card and i sign yoor signature pretty well. does that means i can take leave tomorrow, go orchard and GO GO GO!?
boss: eh. -in a small helpless voice- NO NO NO!
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
11:10 pm
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tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
6:28 pm
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-lol- sound like an ad for a new and improved product. my computer is finally back and i finally have the luxury of sitting in front of my com and blogging. goodness something i didn't have for the past month. To think i really survived the past month.
owning to the fact that i haven made any substantial update on my blog other than a chocolate waffer entry, a lot of people have asked me what i've been doing for the past month. i'm gonna blog about my job!
Work~*
Thumbs up office is a little under-the-HDB-PAP-library-transformed office. it's small but it really truly has everything including a whole horde of talented and extraordinary people. Everything in the office that can be or needs to be designed is designed by our very own Creative Art Director, Eric (he was the youngest art director in singapore before). Hence the interior of our office is very casually but brilliantly done in nice colours, comfy sofas, teevee, kitchen and important rooms. It has a homy feeling while still retaining the practical and classy side of an office=)
Each and every staff at TU is devoted to the work and each has their own pro area of work. There is absolutely no office politics and no grouchy colleuges. Disagreements are settled by having yellow balls and watergun fights. I've been told if one side die die must win, we are allowed to cheat by holding someone from the other party hostage. During office hours, we go for food critic sessions around the 6 hawker centres in the area, we also play jay chou songs loud loud in office. we watch movies and have popcorn sessions. (speaking of which i'm suppose to bring Initial D's DVD) The guys also play Xbox.
but when there's work to be done. everyone works very very hard.
Coming from many many different backgrounds, the staff there are really Powderful. The project director, Rachel is this unbelievable lady. she graduated from business in harvard and she was 2nd in class! she doesn't even put on a haughty facade and she's so nice to everyone even taxi drivers don't charge her money. The GM, Nic used to have a high paying shenton way 3-hour lunch position at sgx and he quitted to do this because he believed in it. Joel, the funny, graduated with an engineering degree. His wife, Praise, previously a lawyer, writer and training consultant also joined us. They have taught me so much stuff by sharing their stories, how to be humble, to know we are not self sufficient and that we all have strenghts and weaknesses. Jaime, my mentor doesn't say much but trusted me with parts of the camp planning and left me space to do what i deemed fit. she has given me a thousand and one chances to try, fail, learn and try again. then there's eric who taught me confidence, jia huey and jasmine to encourage me. awww. where in the world can yoo find such wonderful collegues? everyone is just there because they believed in what they are doing.
Then there's a whole group of volunteers that makes my day at work. alvin's been very much a big brother. and he's been the patient one teaching me the blur block about all the logistics (sometimes i pity him) Peacock always remind me to let things go and do better next time. he's a year younger than me but sometimes i think he sounds like he's 25 (sometimes. most of the time, no.) Steph is so quietly sweet but she's so willing to give all the time. and hahahhaa the two favourite jokers. keith and ben. hahahaha. with them around cannot stop laughing one. (Who's The Man?! -everytime we say that they start pounding their chests)
i like the way whenever there's a run, all of us stay back and OT together. the overnight stay to prepare for camp in office. It's the feeling that everyone is in a team and in it together. and it's often made so enjoyable by the people around yoo that yoo don't even mind the late nights!
May was a busy busy month with an average of 2 runs every week and a hectic last week with every single day jammed packed with events and finally to end with a big bang, The Camp. It was no doubt tiring but i also learnt a great deal. i think this is the happiest job i've have had=) i'm going to be really sad when my internship ends.
Today i learnt from Rachel:
-The road less travelled is in the majoriy of cases the road that makes the greatest difference.=)
P/s: i wanted to blog about outings with ailin and boss but i'm too sleepy=) thank you the both of yoo for the wonderful company!
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
11:05 pm
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tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
6:26 pm
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yesterday was the training for the young changemakers panelist training session for national youth council. so Jaime brought me there to help facilitate. I think Praise (one of my collegue's wife and a very good writer) is a very very inspiring speaker! She was talking about self awareness when she said "Every strength, when overused, becomes a weakness".
Then i realised how true it is.
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
3:40 pm
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tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
2:39 pm
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My 7 top qualities that i look for in my Prince Charming
1. There must be magic! (x7 times)
(haha. it's self explanatory. awww. and covers everything.)
on the couch in esplanade.
tian: eh did yoo watch the jacky wu show yesterday. the one with the pole dancing thing.
boss: oh yea. i watched a bit.
tian: got see the woman who's damn hot and pro not?
boss: the one with Thick Thighs ah (alliteration)
tian: wah lao.. yoo're damn mean.
-pause-
boss: eh. if yoo're kit kat, she must be kit kat CHUNKY.
*imagine* hebe walking down in red. (we had kit kat)
*imagine* Pole dancing woman walks down in red. (Introducing our new product, Kit Kat CHUNKY)
tian get's hysterical laughing while trying to shout "yoo're so mean!"
tian: wah lao. then next time yoo're gonna tell yoor wife (Jessie) "thanks for giving birth to such a cute little baby for me. but now yoo're CHUNKY!" oh man.
boss gets hysterical laughing while trying to shout " NOOOOOOO"
boss: "eh. then next time when she's old. must call her OLD CHANG KEE!"
tian: Remind me never to marry yoo. *glares*
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
11:54 pm
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u must be confused about wat is ur real interest rite?
- princess* says:
yea...
robbie says:
sometimes it is not we choose what we like, is the fate choose what we shld like
its not a bad course. and u dont hate chemical rite? jz go ahead
now. stop thinking whether its a right path or not. jz stick ur ass on the chair and start ur revision on chemistry will be the best thing for u to do, instead of listen to those rumour from nuts
dont worry, jz revise on ur chemistry sub and sleep more
relax and be urself will do
- princess* says:
for once, since when yoo sound so wise arh?
robbie says:
all the time
- princess* says:
看不出来
thank yoo for making me feel more settled when my whole heart was upside down about what i should or shouldn't do. yoo made me realise how much i love chem again. thank yoo. my cousin is zai! racer. engineer. brother and all
no wonder they say engineers are problem solvers.
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
11:47 am
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and next week my internship's starting.
and i've totally no idea when's the next time i'm going to be free.
i'll blog about princess day when i can next find time.
oh well.
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
10:00 pm
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goodness.
nineteen feels so old can.
yuk.yuk.yuk.
i want a small home-y dinner.
must have mummy 的味道.
my mummy got me an ice cream cake.
sticky-chewy-chocolate.
ding dong ding dong!
22nd April is Princess Day. and also a self-declared public holiday. *grins*
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
2:09 pm
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my weekends have been brilliant=) i wanted to put photos and video clips up but hmm. my mp3 and camera are either not with me or not working. but it's okay.
met boss late friday. dinner at this mathattan seafood place. awww. the food there is. AWWWWW. i can't even find a word to describe it! oh. then we went shopping for boss's shirt cos he has isetan voucher. played pool a bit and then we stooped down to brady's house for movie marathon. haha. but we ended up watching ju-on and getting scared. haha. brady is like me lah! the kind get scared while watching ghost show one! hahahahhaa. so cute! at first i thought my Good Friday wouldn't be good at all. but i'm glad i had people around that wouldn't allow me to be unhappy! good Good Friday!!
on saturday. they scouted down to pass me 50 first dates DVD and then entertained me with piano and guitar. brady is pro lah. 嫁给我吧！hahahahahha. then boss came up with 浪漫手机 and 橘子汽水=) mini concert. hee=) tian left for town to meet clarence for lunch and to catch up a bit. oh i ate my bread papa and drank bubble tea. and looked at books at kino. neoprints. wah i haven taken neoprint for so long can. fun! my rescue party appeared and we ate at carls' junior. the star chicken strips is so cute and delicious=) haha onion rings are nice too. sat at the waterfront and listened to a band play. good but not exactly exactly what we were looking for. but still good. listened till 10.30 and then bought ice cream from the ah pek by the river. 3-in-1 all flavour one. 香草把噗=) sat around and boh a bit. while listening to all the nice songs on zen. realised it was 11.40 and tian was hungry. supper at newton circus. Satay Satay!!!! and carrot cake. ding dong ding dong. oh man. i don't 姓彭 la. change to 幸福 already. and i eat my words about Singapore having no night life.
just when i thought sunday will be very sad for me cos i woke up with a sore throat and was feeling off the whole of the day. ailin messaged with excellent news! i'm soooo happy for yoo dear! -does a little gig- hee. and oh my white star!! Awww. *sobs* i don't deserve such good friends. tian receive my first white tulips ever ever. althought i kept insisting it's so terrible to get my first tulips from the wrong person. but actually tian was so touched. all because i was sick i get flowers. now i'm all smiles and happy.
and next week end will be even better.
周末万岁-*
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
7:50 pm
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minling, shenyue and ailin puts up with my stuff-crust request at pizza hut even though they don't really really like it.
and on a closer look. my screen's image looks less stretched. boss must have adjusted it for me last weekend.
Geoffrey treated me to caramel frappe and showed me pictures of half the globe. i want to fit into his suitcase lah!
aww. thanks people.
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
11:41 pm
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argh. i need to start working before i can get my uni school bag.
argh. my fringe is so short now.
argh. my favourite flowers are white tulips and i haven't gotten any before.
argh. i'm broke.
argh. there's no food at home and i haven eaten since i woke up.
argh. the next 新娘18 岁 is next monday. so far away.
argh. i don't really wanna be 19 so soon.
argh. i had a horrid nightmare about ghosts vampires and whatnots last night.
argh. i'm feeling a tad guilty about eating pizzahut yesterday.
argh. my grandmother works like a classic alarm clock. she wakes me up at 7.45 every morning with her coughs.
argh. i'm tired.
haha. i know i shouldn't be complaining so much but awww.... once in a while won't hurt! haha=)
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
3:52 pm
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today boss said "yoo know how to walk not? Go out turn right hor"
tian excitedly said "aiyah. i know lah. take bus only what!"
happily i queued in a line, boarded the bus, 十一月的肖邦 playing on boss's zen.
at track 12, 45 minutes after i boarded the bus, while jay chou was expressively singing 我一路向北~ i looked up and to my utmost horror i saw the woodlands check point! frantically and bewildered, i turned my head back and saw the green number plate revoltingly reads 178.
-.-"
win already. i was suppose to be on 187.
wah lao! SBS shouldn't do this to me lah. what's the difference between 187 and 178?!? (*glares* don't tell me 9.) they look the same lah! @!#^&*$_%!-#
and i was at Boon Lay interchange can?! and i ended up in woodlands interchange!!
really 一路向北啦=(
argh.
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
12:24 am
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Finally the post is up. haha. i was having fun making collages manually(cos i don't know any better way of doing so) because all of yoo guys pang-seh us. (aww ailin. yoo know i don't mean yoo) yoo don't get to have fun bleahhhhhhhhh~ lol*
but anyway there yoo go. picture galore!
Took a 11.30 p.m. night coach into the heartlands of Malaysia. the bus driver was how sensitive can. people on the bus heading for a destination. he played the show Final Destination 3 to kill time. so throughout the night i was busy trying to get to sleep and trying to shut off the sickening noises of staple bullets firing into people's heads or people getting barbequed alive in coffin-like containers. As yoo can see i wasn't very successful. and naturally no one was in the mood for photos since they were like clues to how the actors died in the show.
Day 1-*
reached KL before daybreak. and had a little scare then cos the phones don't work and we had no idea where we were. jiu mings lah. but luckily my cousin wasn't that hard to spot (hahahaha) and we got safely into the car! and off to her apartment and she showed us where sunway and shopping center were.
quick nap. before we left for the amusement park with nothing other than money. and no camera also. awww. but we had loads of fun! loads of long wet slides, roller coaster, silly rides, and the long scary drawbridge. shen yue and jian xue even bursted a float and had the ride manager looking at them with a perplexed expression while trying to guess their total weight. ahahahahaa!
walked back to my cousin's apartment after our long day in sunway (we played until the amusement park closed) bathed and got ready for dinner!
shen yue looked especially radiant. KL sun working its magic.
Us on the car looking drunk and high~
After dinner kor treated us to KTV.. photos while we were heading to the KTV place. got more actually but some were too dark=(
hee. monkeying about.
Anyway Shen yue was high throughout the entire night. We stayed at the KTV till 3 am in the morning! while minling and tian were collapsed in a heap, jianxue was dozing off on the sofa, my roly poly cousin was stoning, shen yue was still clinging to the mike for dear life. and because jianxue was holding on to the camera, and he was too mesmerised by our melodious voices, he forgot to take photos -.- he so poor thing. during the trip anything that went wrong was always his fault. hahahahahhahhaa.
tired. so at 4 am we collasped.
Day 2-*
Shopping! headed to KLCC in a cab.
The City!
oh the roads in KL are super scary. they go by the 人多势众 theory. got a lot of pople means can 走-杰伦 already. traffic lights? what's that? and because i never liked to cross roads. i was damn freaked out.
hungover from last night's KTV. coupled with our lens giving us problem. tian and minling not high today.
but it's okay. still had fun!
sungei wang. lot 20. some shopping centre i cannot remember. times square. back to sungei wang.
wahh my legs.
so finally we took a tad time off to slack at starbucks. tired liaoz.
Awww...ice cool frappes and nice couches.
hee...see jian xue? don't get deceived by his innocent appearances... look!!!
*shakes head* *tsk TSk*
shopped till dark. but actually the stuff there weren't that cheap. so we weren't that satisfied. but too tired to continue le. dinner by the road side. local food. one which was surprisingly interesting was this escargo look-a-like shell fish where yoo have to suck the insides out. tian who was never a big fan of shell-fishies was very amused. but being allergic. i looked more than i ate.
desserts at this club looking restuarant. brilliant lightings, decor and ambience. but no chendol. awwwww.
had fun playing guessing games=)
reached the apartments early morning. washed up. went downstairs for supper in pyjamas. haha. rotiprata at 2 in the morning. brilliant. slept at what seems like 4 again.
Day 3-*
lazy. woke up. dim sum. short detour to get pastry home.
Homeward Bound!
goodness, i look so tired. but it was fun!!!
last shot to leave yoo guys with. JIANXUE ACTING MACHO! haha... carrying all our barang barangs=)
hahaha. no lor. we didn't do this to him during the trip. This photo he pretend pose one.
there yoo go. our little roadtrip post. 3 weeks late. hahahaha=)
fun. let's go again!
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
11:28 am
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yoo can never predict what might or might not happen. and when bad things happen yoo look for something or someone yoo can blame only to realise yoo've in some way or another played a part in adding to the situation today. that's when yoo look back and regret what yoo've done only to find it's too late.
but everything happens for a reason. and i guess the next best thing yoo can do to salvage the situation is to pick up the lesson from it and go on being a stronger person. no matter how devastated yoo might be, ultimately no one can pick yoo up other than yoorself.
i hope yoo'll have the courage to express yoor feelings. to tell the people around yoo yoo really treasure them. it isn't be easy but it's a worthwhile investment to make. then yoo won't have to live yoor life with painful regrets.
brace up my dear! tian will always be there to back yoo up=) just like i know yoo will for me.
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
1:51 am
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cookies and eclairs~
shenyue's coming over on Saturday! and we're baking the above.
Awwww... *drool*
oh by the way. the KL roadtrip post is 2 weeks late but it's coming up! hee=) and minling shenyue remind me to bring the photos for yoo all this sat!
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
11:41 am
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i've lost important people in my life. family. best friends. people who loved me. people whom i loved. maybe that's why i try so hard to hang on to all the people around me. even when i know i have to let go, all i do is cling on tighter. even when it tires me a lot. but i also know i've to learn to be brave and if i don't pick myself up, no one else can do it for me. so i learn to be brave. to not cry when people are looking.
可是为什么到现在还是我在学坚强? 要学到什么时候啦...
and maybe it's cos i don't wanna lose that's why i don't dare to step forward. even though people around me tell me to treasure what i've got now. i know i've just been running away from it. tian doesn't want to think about relationships for now. don't give me anymore pressure le. just let me be a tad selfish once in a while. just let me basked in the luxury of being with people i really feel comfortable with 好不好？
可以吗？
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
12:28 am
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i've got a new nephew!
Awwww. he's so tiny and adorable. my brother came and gave me a lift to see the baby today. but he had to go on to describe the process of giving birth while i was cringing all the way to JB hospital. hmm. i think all mothers are the most courageous people in the world.
my little newphew blinked a bit, waved his little fist in the air and announced to the whole world my arrival by wailing about his soiled nappy. haha. O.o Awww.
because i'm so particular about names. and because i'm the princess in the household, my brother lets me name his two children. after a rather huge disasterous phone conference with boss who gave suggestions like denise(if it's a girl) and denewphew if it's a boy, i finally came to terms with 誉峰, yu feng. boss thought of that! next time can tell my boy then his jian xue kor kor named him=)
but anyway while discussing the name with my brother, he insisted that 'feng' in Malaysia is spelt as 'fong'. so okay lah he win. Pang Yu Fong Jensen then. though i insist that Pang Yu Feng looks nicer.
on the way home i realised i named his brother Pang Yu Xin Vincent. put the two together...
Pang Yu Xin Vincent
Pang Yu Fong Jensen
ooOOOooooooH. brilliant can or not! and it's also a not-so-coincidental coincidence that the jensen i know who used to cut spider web and fight with me in primary school is some piano diploma who can tell yoo when yoor refrigerator is humming a B flat and when it's off key. and write a song on the busride from home to school. Awwwww.
maybe in the not-so-near-future, my two little nephews can be the next Lee Si Song/Lee Wei Song duo. or maybe even like Jay and Vincent Fong! hahahahaha *.^
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
5:17 pm
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i think i'm too nice already.
now there's no point in taking leave tomorrow.
i shall think about it.
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
5:01 pm
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-.-
i feel like rearranging her face.
i'm taking my day off tomorrow.
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
9:29 am
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但偏偏雨渐渐大倒我看你不见
还要多久我才能够在你身边
等到放晴那天
也许我会比较好一点
从前从前有个人爱你很久
但偏偏风渐渐把距离吹的好远
好不容易又能再多爱一天
但故事的最后 你好像还是说了拜拜
it sucks to be the bad person because yoo feel like yoo've hurt the whole world just to protect yoorself. it always seem easy to say things like "at times yoo've got to let go" but it's never easy carrying out these actions. i think it's going to take what seems like ages before i dare to fall in love.
i think i've lost a friend.
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
11:04 pm
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而我对你的期待
被你一次次摔坏
已经碎成太多块
要怎么拼凑跟重来-
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
11:44 am
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for yoor nice happy
biscuit imitation.
i like. love yoo.
i'm sleepy.
bored.
bye~
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
5:16 pm
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说的未来到底多久才来
总是要来不及才 知道我可爱
我想依赖而你却都不在
应该开心的地带 你给的全是空白
一个人假日发呆 找不到人陪我看海
我在幸福的门外 却一直都进不来
你累积给的伤害 我是真的很难释怀
终於看开爱回不来 而你总是太晚明白
最後才把话说开 哭著求我留下来
终於看开爱回不来 我们面前太多阻碍
你的手却放不开 宁愿没出息求我别离开
你总是要我乖 慢慢计划将来
我的眼泪却一直掉下来
过去怎么交代 你该给的信赖
被你亲手缓缓推入悬崖
从我脸上的苍白 看到记忆慢下来
过去甜蜜在倒带 只是感觉已经不在
而我对你的期待 被你一次次摔坏
已经碎成太多块 要怎么拼凑跟重来
终於看开爱回不来 而你总是太晚明白
最後才把话说开 哭著求我留下来
终於看开爱回不来 我们面前太多阻碍
你的手却放不开宁愿没出息求我别离开
告别你的存在 告别这场恋爱
求我别离开
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
11:54 pm
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met my dearest ailin and minling for lunch yesterday. and they got me a pretty pretty eye shadow colour palette. i opened the present it was almost like a dream come true! i've always wanted a pretty colour palette. it makes yoo feel like a make up pro. except now there's just one thing. i don't know how to use it. haha. Shen yue~ teach me!
after a bit of whinning with my favourite buffy over the phone. everything just looks sunny again. Buffy always there to save the world (pun intended). that's perhaps one of the conservations i have for leaving for overseas. i think i'll be quite miserable without buffy, without ailin, without my pillars of support. i'm uncertain about a lot of things right now. about what i should do in future. about the people in my life. and when yoo start to think and wonder about whether it is correct to protect yoorself it feels good when a friend tells yoo, " i'll support yoor decision and walk beside yoo" or "just do what yoo feel is correct". tian's tired. right now i don't feel like thinking about anything else. i just want to enjoy the things around me, relax in the company of people i feel comfortable with=) whether or not i'll leave at the end of it all...
公主別哭腫大眼睛 悲痛太不流行 浪費美麗* -S.H.E-
yea... cannot 浪費美麗!~
=)
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
2:53 pm
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upon my dreaded arrival at office, i see my department people sitting at their desks. wah. i'm not alone can. they came and they are probably going to be here for one month more. which is when i'm planning to stay with the company until. peachy. i hope the situation doesn't change. but i foresee a boardroom uproar when the london boss comes back. i wonder if i've to take minutes, do i censor the swearwords? nevertheless. second happy thing today!
then i've got lunch with minling to look forward to. we never seem to not have anything to talk about. and hot date after work tonight! it's time for some quality retail therapy. and probably will be the best treatment for my not so fortunate fall down some stairs yesterday. again, life feels great when yoo are surrounded by friends. good food tonight. yum. and my army skirt. peachy.
oh meeting with the kids tomorow. i think i've got a lot to convince myself not to strangle them. but ai yah. control. patience.
owww. it hurts. but today is a happy day!
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
9:30 am
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C borrow $100. $50 dollars each from A and B and used it to get a $97 birthday present. With the remaining $3 dollars, he returned $1 to A and B respectively and keep $1 for himself. So effectively he now owes A and B a total of $98 bucks. Plus the dollar in his pocket, it adds up to only $99. Account for the missing dollar.
brady said after some thought:
why yoo go and add the dollar? he owns $98 dollars right, yoo take away the dollar that he kept, the deficit is -$97... which is the present lah...
boss's answer was a matter-of-factly:
A, B and C all friends right? then ai yah... $1 care so much for what.
sometimes he just amazes me...
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
9:28 pm
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(don't say i never scan for yoo all ah)
tian is listening to...
-倒带
曲：周杰伦 词：方文山
我受够了等待你所谓的安排
说的未来到底多久才来
总是要来不及才知道我可爱
我想依赖而你却都不在
应该开心的地带 你给的全是空白
一个人假日发呆 找不到人陪我看海
我在幸福的门外
却一直都进不来
你累积给的伤害
- 我是真的很难释怀
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
3:23 pm
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sat at explanade with ailin minling and shen yue on V-day listening to a band which had 2 members who used to be in Dreamz FM(meng fei chuan). wah. pro lah. one of the Dream guy sang angels and superman. high. high. high. no wonder Dreamz was so known for their falsetto. speaking of which i better chop chop scan his signature for the rest.
anyway. going out on V-day when yoo don't have a date is a terrible thing. because every other girl is either holding on to a guy's hand or to a bouquet of flowers. Nevertheless, i feel happy for all those who are happily attached. so xinfu!
tired. trying to hang on by reminding myself the weekend is coming. sigh. but it's not working. i keep feeling like going out. but zZZzzzZz. i feel like a half day off.
feeling jittery at the moment.and i miss everyone. as boss puts it: "like how the blind man will shoot".
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
2:33 pm
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我的心是个落叶的季节
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯 早已经全都熄灭
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
12:58 am
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照片里一整个消失的年代 很想知道个大概
关于空气的味道我还在猜 很像樱花都还在
took a little spin around the town and visited the spots, playgrounds, trees we used to play by. i'm reminiscing. it seems a really long long time ago but suddenly everything just came back to us. laughed a lot at the little stuns that we used to pull. how we used to sleep, bathe, monkey about. happy trio.
墙角青苔 总是绿的太快 回忆慢慢 慢慢爬进来
we used to take turns getting ferried about on the motor bike. or sometimes when i was still small enough to fit into the front basket, all three of us on one bike. plucked flowers (illegally of course) from the neighbours trees and string them together to make necklaces and crowns. pretended we were princesses. licking the small drops of honey off the giant hibicus. played badminton in the runway and getting the shuttlecock stuck on other people's roof. getting piggybacked, going jogging in the fields, catching fishes in the big canal. climbing in to expore the unoccupied house. firecrackers to scare the neighbours' dog. waiting excitedly for the "toot toot" cart (a movable mama shop on wheels). pigging out on whatever nonsense we could get with what little money we had.
happy. very.
煮一杯 热咖啡 喝一些 固执的以为
As we grew up, we became pre-occupied with our little worlds. and we each thought we no longer had time for each other. she thought we were dao and didn't want to include her in our little games. we thought she was always with her guy and didn't think we were important anymore. slowly we got accustomed without her. and i guess she did too.
我们一直到最后才学会 哭泣时候谁安慰
而成长让人觉得累 却已没有办法后退
but i guessed neither of us knew how badly we've misunderstood each other. we had a very long talk on the eve of her wedding and i can't help but think. if only we hadn't just kept quiet and simply left things to be. then maybe we wouldn't have wasted so many good years. now that she's a wife and a mother-to-be, i wonder how long would it be when we get to go out again. and even if we do. i don't think we could ever do the same silly things we did.
啊咿啊 转眼之间已经长大
啊咿啊 梦与现实的落差
啊咿啊 我们还有什么剩下
only 5 hours left.
we sat stoning on the same bed we all used to sleep on more than 6 years ago. slacking. the 5 hours was comfortable. like before. but if yoo think about it, it's going to be the last 5 hours as kids.
回家吧 声音沙哑 只是想找人说说话
所以阿 别让牵挂 变成一种孤单害怕
but i'm glad that we made it clear at the end of it all that nothing has changed in our relationship except that it has grown more subtle. we'll still be there for each other. always always.
雨在下 家乡竹篱芭 南下的风轻轻刮
告别了繁华 将行李卸下 我们回家
the trees remain, the playground looks older, the graffiti remains, new rows of shophouses replaces the old fishing canal, we outgrew the motorbike, the unoccupied house remains unoccupied.
but we've all grown up...
墙壁上的老挂钟是过去某个时空我说你就懂
已经消失的生活是不可能再从头我说你难过
客厅里的裁缝机是否再发出声音我说你伤心
回到儿时的街道是不安夹杂心跳我说你微笑
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
12:28 pm
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oh i'm off to malaysia this saturday. i told my auntie i can chase thief in my heels now. she sounded relatively relieved over the phone. i'm still in self denial that my cousin's getting married. it all seems not too long ago that we were playing catching in the playground. then she started growing up and being interested in things i wasn't like boys, clothes and having a waist. and now that i'm interested she's getting married. awwwwww... i hope i get a chance to talk to her properly.
i heard my cousin wants it really simple. right now, i think i want drama drama one like a super long gown that trails a mile behind yoo. haha. i probably will change my mind later.
random thoughts. why doesn't UHU glue stick to their tube?
i'll be back on sunday night. then it's work again on monday. my racer cousin says he won't be back. project he claims. i'm sure. more like project girlfriend. hahahaha.
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
9:03 am
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oh. i do think i'm missing my straight hair.
new ring tone. my phone is playing 浪漫手机 now...hahahaha because half of my friends are working while the other half and zheng is in camp...my phone doesn't seem to be getting its usual share of loving and aawwww messages. hopefully 浪漫手机 will make my 手机 more 浪漫 =)
bored. lunch at raffles hotel in a while. boss's treat ^^ wahhhhhh *grins* that's the advantage of working in a posh posh company... the bosses happy happy then go big big hotels and have high teas....
i heard he drives a silver convertible porche in London and he just bought a house in Caribbean facing Sentosa...wah...good life.
p/s: ailin! he's a good looking caucasian...hee...
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
12:04 pm
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*grins*
我站在教室门口的小角落
偷偷看着你可爱的笑容
你就像天上的云朵 我好想变成彩虹
桔子汽水的香味飘在空气中
你嘴角的奶油看的我好心动
我和你的默契有种节奏
牵着我的心跳跟你走
就这样牵着你一直走 这路没有尽头
就是喜欢你偷瞄着我的害羞
让我紧紧牵着你的手
望着星空 直到我们心灵相通
就这样牵着你一直走 这次绝不放手
我会努力变成属于你的流星
帮你实现心底所有期待的愿望
不管四季变化 我的心意不隐瞒
天空突然下起了一场大雨
我该不该现在送你回去
不想打断你给的甜蜜
干脆就让我陪你淋雨
桔子汽水的香味飘在空气中
你嘴角的奶油看的我好心动
我和你的默契有种节奏
牵着我的心跳跟你走
就这样牵着你一直走 这路没有尽头
就是喜欢你偷瞄着我的害羞
让我紧紧牵着你的手
望着星空 直到我们心灵相通
就这样牵着你一直走这次绝不放手
我会努力变成属于你的流星
帮你实现心底所有期待的愿望
不管四季变化 我的心意不隐瞒
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
4:34 pm
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today spells an ultra sian day right from the moment i had to get out of bed... maybe cos i was so sleepy...haha...mum nagged at me a bit in the monring and i (like i not stupid too) "ah oh eh" my way through while all the long line of $&$%&$#$@$^(&*&)%%^#! moved from my left ear in and right ear out....
went for an ultra long lunch break(during office hours) just now and did some shopping. retail therapy i call it... so after lunch i woke up a bit despite the fact that i didn't eat... copied out messages from my phone (during working hours again)... then now i'm blogging (correct! during office hours too!) hahahahhaha! i think i'm so slack...but there's really not much that i had to do today...
read the messages guozheng(who's at field camp already) sent again=) realised ailin's such a sweet heart and that boss hasn't signed his C-BR bond with sewnsens(feels bad! sorry)
yesterday was fun day...played sparkles(a lot of it too) and saw bosses' attempt in building a gadget thingy... was pretty but gone in a flash and it was too quick a waste of one packet of sparkles=( no wonder he said it's going to be a waste. and i was brave! i climbed on top of the monkey bar with a little little little bit of help only lor! and i sat on quite a long bike ride... with the wind blowing across my face... super super relaxing and nice...
i think i'm getting a sore throat though... uh oh...
我的天空今天有点灰
我的心是个落叶的季节
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯 早已经全都熄灭
S.H.E's album's nice... sounds very sweet and it's gonna accompany me for a good three weeks or so... everyone's still having meeting... i got nothing to do lah! *bored*
oh! on a lighter note! rest of the guys...all the best for field camp! stay safe and healthy=)
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
4:07 pm
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that dreadful word... i think im experiencing inertia and it feels as though i've forgotten how to do every single thing i've learnt since my first day of work...and my fingertips seems to be allergic to the keyboard=( wah i tell yoo i really have no idea how i'm going to get past today... it's been 45 minutes and i'm bored already!
jiu mings lah.
i have totally no idea why but this year doesn't feel chinese-new-yearsy to me at all... apart from being sick for the first couple of days and not being able to pig out on all the new year goodies... maybe it's cos we're not in Malaysia this year... no fire crackers, fireworks, sure-win gambling and all my fun fun cousins!
plus. there's work.
zhengie went back to camp yesterday... so i stopped at pasir ris for a while before going to my auntie's house...wah i saw a lot of people lah! including le jia and andrew=) and a whole lot of NS guys... see them line up in neat files and then boarding the bus... and everyone looks so serious... and guozheng was almost late! i wonder what happens if someone misses the bus? someone told me they have to swim to tekong...
got home late and realised today there's work -.-*
boss says all commandos are crazy people... then i realise chayten is a commando lah! but i don't know if he's crazy or not...so yesterday we chatted a bit over the phone (he did sent his condolences to boss for getting a commando instructor...actually... chayten said " he die already...good luck to him") and he said we could go for chocolate ice cream... hmm so i think...he hasn't gone crazy yet... i don't exactly know how to spell his name..but chayten has always been chayten...he says at least i got the pronunciation right.
one of the few times i get non friendsy comments on my tag board... so to the person who tagged sincere apologies but whatever yoo claimed i lifted weren't intentional... offending people on blogs and getting jailed was a common issue and as for dolphins...my boss would probably be proud of me for learning such a long word from him=) righto, boss?
dinner tonight=) see yoo guys! oh and sparkles sparkles.... i want to play with sparkles!!
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
9:12 am
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tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
11:08 am
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oh...i think i've learnt my lesson. it almost always doesn't pay when yoo attempt to free out some time for a pre-finalised plan.... and then yoo get all happy and excited and wait in so much anticipation then when it doesn't work out the way yoo want it...it makes yoo feel twice a billion times as sad.
like today, i'm suppose to meet my mentees...(wah i'm so dead, good luck in fitting everything in next week) i'm suppose to go shopping with my girl friends and i'm suppose to be choosing new furniture at ikea... until my parents stood me up... they hardly have time for ME! *GROWL*
so i've learnt my lesson, i'm going to stop being so 方便... in the office as well...today i got bullied again... so i've decided i'm going to learnt to be un-nice to some people. i'm going to tell the next person who ask me to buy a donation ticket no, instead of buying it cos i feel so intimidated, i'm going to tell those people in office, whom i'm not suppose to work for that i'm busy and not suppose to be doing their work for them, and i'm going to make plans that suit myself and stop trying to accommodate everyone into my schedule and driving myself nuts in the process...
sounds selfish? haha nay...i know i'll never hit the extreme (i'm too nice...wahahahaha)...i'm just being grouchy...
oh well...grouchiness aside.
welcome back guys and congratulations brady on getting discharged...whatever nonsense is over! yoo'll be strong, safe and healthy in the new year! and yea! bicycle race still on! i sure win lah=)
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
4:37 pm
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haha this says a great deal about how concentrated and how professional i am...lol...off to type more documents...~.~zZzzZZzzzz....
oh yea... the AVP is away so i get to sit at her table and happily surf net, talk on the phone and listen to jay chou and at the same time earn money *evil laughter*
i forgot to say that the computer screen here is much bigger than my house's...all the blogs look tiny...
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
1:06 pm
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i had the ultimate bad day today...so bad that if it rained today lightning would have struck me twice and if singapore wasn't as litter-free as it is, i would have slipped and fell on a banana skin or stepped on dog shit.
and i thought it wasn't so bad at first...cos i received a phone call at 12.19 to tell me i'm hired.
but because i had another scheduled interview in the afternoon, i told them i'll get back to them in the afternoon. so they said anything before 4 would be peachy. and so happily i went for the interview in the afternoon but to realise that the work place will be too far and not within travelling distance. and so at 3.10 p.m. i returned a phone call to the company who called in the morning but they said they gave the position to someone else! arghhh.... yoo guys said 4 lah!
besides that i also missed buses 3 times, missed my stops 2 consecutive times and had to walk like miles, banged into the suntec door and some other building's door, lost my way at eunos and tripped on my way home...
great...
did i fail to mention while hunting very hard for a dustbin to dump my coffee bean drink i walked into the guys toilet? (go ahead and laugh at me... *pouts*) i was walking along this ultra long corridor and there was no dustbin what... then i finally spotted one at the very end of the walkway, there was a dustbin in front of a wall... so i happily walked all the way to the end(thinking it's just the end of the corridor) how was i to know it was also the entrance to the male toilet! the door was wide open lah so the sign was hidden!!!
i saw a vain guy waxing his hair...his jaw dropped an inch when he saw me! i shrieked and ran away! ahhh...i hope i don't see him ever again! jiu mings lah...
arghhhhh...talk about a bad day!
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
10:19 pm
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i went on a little trip to the charming little island on saturday... tropical island know, surrounded by crystal clear water, rich greenery and sandy white beaches.... and the resorts(barracks) have a manificent view facing the sea, with a cool touch of the sea breeze... good no? oh! not forgetting, if yoo were to just look out at the horizon, yoo'll be greated by little islands that look like sand dunes from afar and the calm alluring waters... tempting?
yet somehow at the end of it all... i found it super hard to leave him there. it just didn't seem that peachy. i didn't want to let go and it was super hard to keep my tears in my eyes (he didn't help at all the night before too with his 'last everything' theory...last lunch, last movie, last blah blah...)
and as i look at his back view as he walked towards the enlistees section, it simply signifies new beginning of something else... too serious? yoo might say... but if yoo stand at the jetty looking at someone's back view...yoo would feel the same too... it feels funny to go there with him and return without... even though i know it's just NS. i'm going to miss him a lot...
i've been feeling sad all week... the counting down to guo zheng's enlistment was terrible, the disappearance of my guy friends who always cheer me up when i'm down, guo zheng's enlistment was awful, the malicious and untrue letter, missing him and everyone else... so i cried like mad when i came home on saturday...
*hugs* ai lin and minling cheer up k! tian loves yoo guys...
and ohhhh mannnn...buffy...yoo are just about the sweetest i feel like giving yoo a kiss... thanks for telling me yoo would slay the as*h*le who wrote the letter...and standing on my side and cheering me on... and saying the sweetest things... making me feel protected from him when i feel so defenseless and when it seems no one's going to stand up for me at all... love yoo to bits!
i think i have to grow stronger... so from now on... to nuts with what that pain-in-the-ass says... *with a wave of my hand* oh...what....EVER.
i'm going to be jolly. haha.
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
3:28 am
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a friend says:
i think that letter was downright extra..
that aside,
no matter what he or other people for that matter say,
i feel.. as long as you have a perfect understanding with the person you like
you won't and shouldn't be bothered by that at all.
just believe in yourself ok
as long as you make sure you do the right things, whatever negative things people say.. are just bullshit.
must be strong!
okies! i'll start with the dumb bells...thank yoo=)
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
12:07 am
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我举杯 饮尽了风雪
是谁打翻了前世柜
惹尘埃是非
缘自诀 几番轮回
你锁眉 哭红颜唤不回
纵然青史已经成灰
我爱不灭
繁华如三千东流水
我只取一瓢爱了解
只恋你化身的蝶
你发如雪 凄美的离别
我焚香 感动了谁
邀明月 让回忆皎洁
爱在月光下完美
你发如雪 纷飞了眼泪
我等待 苍老了谁
红尘醉 微醺的岁月
我用无悔 刻永世爱你的碑
铜镜映无邪 扎马尾
你若撒野 今生我把酒奉陪
sometimes yoo look at the lyrics and listen to the song and yoo just wonder how much more brilliant that duo can get=) to those who think he can't sing... he makes it up with his music and the ingenuity of vincent fung's lyrics.
my pretty white little -nod nod- is sitting cutely on my desk and my pretty new slippers are ready to be worn, the next time i go gai gai... and i'm feeling happy thanks to the chocolates from japan! =) i'm feeling loved.
after the little drama yesterday night... thanks for all the reassurance, telling me not to cry and worry when i was feeling down...for the virtual hugs...for worrying about my dinner...for telling me to write down how i feel... for making me feel better and for being there for me...
Thank yoo santa for delievering the best-est friends a girl could get=)
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
3:43 pm
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tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
2:02 am
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on a side note...zheng delivered my prom photos... i hate taking photos....cos i don't look nice in photos... i don't want to look at them again=( zheng's parents must be thinking... ewww...
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
6:27 pm
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please please please don't throw my stuff away...
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
12:29 am
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argh... i'm not photogenic at all...=(
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
2:57 pm
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Prom's tomorrow...i feel a tad nervous... so i watched my frog show episode again=) they all look so nice and pretty and no one trips over their heels... i keep having a nagging feeling inside me... that somehow something might just go wrong... haha... like today...someone stepped on my manicured toesnails=(
in my frog show... the girl didn't think her date would turn up (she made a bet with a bitchy girl that if her date doesn't turn up she would do a bikini dance in front of everyone)... just when everyone thought her date wasn't going to show up and forces her to start dancing...her date appears in a stunning outfit and gave her a white rose! (white rose means only i'm compatible with yoo..haha...i just learnt)
happy ending...
i hope tomorrow will be like that... happy happy ending...
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
10:51 pm
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speaking from experience, the movie is an underestimate of the potential of ants...
i tell yoo...ants are not yoor noble and kind creatures that carries little lost kids in "Honey, i shrunk the kids" nor are they hardworking, perservering creatures that save the world....
after today, i look at ants with a brand new perspective... small, insignificant maybe but definitely not to be undermined...
*shudders* i use to tell people not to kill them. but now...
-STOMP-
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
12:36 am
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everyone's flocking to sentosa! i also wanna go...but my cousin(who is a skin consultant/therapist) says BAD FOR THE SKIN! so i wait... *pouts* oh yea..and she did my nails for me too... but i think i spoilt all of them...cos i didn't really have the patience to wait for them to dry....i want a french manicure! haha...she painted my toenails white... looks a bit like liquid paper... haha...
oh i found tian long ba bu's VCD! wahahaha...tee vee is really my life now...i cannot do without tee vee! but i'm not all dying to watch tian long ba bu... it's not as nice as my zhao min and zhang wu ji show...
dinner...and then my SHE show! selina is a tad too whiney... and ella is a tad too un-whiney...hebe is just nice...haha and she's so pretty! i like her=) don't yoo all?
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
5:58 pm
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shopping shopping again... i call it retail therapy..and it really works k...mind yoo! shopping is good...cos walking is a form of exercise, it also satisfy the sense of curiosity, satisfaction and vainity.... killing 4 birds with one stone!
there's no art classes open for me! all for little kids de... why why why! *imagines myself sitting on a small stool among all the little uns* *pouts*
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
10:24 pm
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byebye long straight hair! haha now i feel light and bouncy=)
i'm going back for highlights...after i decide the colour...
oh yea...my boyfriend wouldn't wanna know how much i spent (*.^)
i'm feeling jolly...oh well...despite the hole in my pocket=(
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
11:25 pm
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computers are horrid thingys... drawing it took 30 minutes... figuring a way to put it up took 3 hours... *irritated*
i'll take it down tomorrow after a nice good sleep and some psychoing of myself to go through another 3 torturous hours
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
1:54 am
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boss told me last night when i asked him what's so nice bout soccer... when there's so many people chasing after a ball...so he said...
"the twenty of them chasing after a ball is to help the two people who cannot move get the ball...so yoo see..it's a sharing caring and giving game...that showcases the character of all guys"
eh '_^ *raise eyebrows* i'm sure... haha
like "ELISA-beth, write my assay" and many of his painful jokes....this is not an exception...
ouch! *winks* haha=)
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
2:24 pm
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my idea of a nice prom date! 
and now i'm obsessed with my fighting serials! so i'm watching yi tian tu long ji again! i watched 11 episodes since i got home yesterday lah! i think she's so pretty...i don't like the other girl...she's so evil...ewww...boss would agree...right?
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
1:41 pm
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tian says: i don't really think there's a difference... i get worried sick and i feel just as lousy...
i'll pray very very hard...
get well soon dearie...
i love yoo...
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
10:14 pm
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wahh...this one even prettier!!! WHITE WHITE WHITE!!! and it even comes with the piano bench... i like this one better=) i wish it would play some nice nice tune... *points* i want.
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
1:40 pm
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can one...sure can...
maybe.
i don't know actually...
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
12:33 am
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i wish i can sit in a shell, hug myself to sleep and pretend nothing bad ever happened...
why can't i do just that?
what's wrong with me?
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
12:40 am
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zheng surprised me by saying that he didn't think i was stupid at all... just that i always seem very stupid around him... true, i admit i can be very independent if i want to... but i like it when guozheng does all the thinking for me... it's as though i know when i'm with him nothing bad will ever ever happen to me... and i can just rest my brain and trust myself with him... i like to be dependent on him... it's a feeling of security.
A lot of girls spend their lives looking for a perfect someone... but i don't think things are just peachy after yoo find that someone...there's still a lot to do to smooth out the kinks yoo would bound to find in every relationship... and so i would say it's more important to find someone who's worth every bit of yoor effort than to find Mr-Perfect right at the start. it's the process of making the relationship work out that's more meaningful than just simply being in one.
i love my guozheng to bits because he let's me have the feeling of being in love=)
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
11:13 am
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i know it's pretty unfair for me to demand he carries on his life with all the love he had for her in the past... but it still irks me a little when he said he couldn't remember...
i know for a fact he's going to find another girlfriend in the near future... maybe someone who's prettier and with curves to die for... get married...have a lot of kids running around him and have a really happy family... somehow i don't seem to want to see that happening even though i know it's horrible of me...
ultimately...i know i'm just being selfish.
nights.
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
11:52 pm
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i just can't start studying for bio...don't know what's wrong with me...and then i'll start panicking later at night..and start giving up...and totally not study at all..and the next day...good luck to me! it's not cos i'm distracted by stuff or..thinking about stuff now...just no momentum left... got a whole truck load of inertia though... *sheepish look*
i think i lost all of my momentum over the weekend...which i got zilch studying done... when everyone was mugging like mad... so i must say both my chem and physics papers were horridly done... oh well it's over...
i'm feeling a little bitchy today...but it's in the nature of every girl to be bitchy once in a while... i can't be nice all the time right... just maybe 99% of the time... *egos a bit* yea and so bitchy me still don't feel like talking... cos i still get so irritated and frustrated when i think about it... and it's SO NOT frustrated at myself... i'm gonna rant so read at yoor own discomfort=)... i really hate it when people impose their ideas on me/force me to make decisions or attempt to take things in their own hands... in short, if it applies to a guy...i dislike chauvinism...i'm glad i'm one of the luckiest girls who doesn't have a chauvinistic boyfriend. i need respect not feel like a doormat...all walked over...
next...if yoo are trying to help...i see good intentions...i thank and applaude yoo for it... but no need to go "i'm so sick i'm dying, i'm so sleepy and i'm staying up to help yoo" or tell me "i could really be stuying for my A levels now, i'm wasting away my future on yoo" yadayada... *rolls eyes* yoo get the picture... no one asked yoo to do anything...no need to get all noble...
what's the use of doing stuff like that again and again...and then write pages of letters to try and apologise if yoo just do it again next time...
woah...i know this post is trouble inviting... and it's done with so little EQ that i'm actually quite amuse at myself... (i always like to think my EQ's a tad higher than my IQ)... this post is rather un-tian... so i'll take it off as soon as i calm down...which i really hope is soon...
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
11:50 am
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tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
11:56 pm
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felt so horrid yesterday during chem... miss chua's lesson seemed like forever...i would have slept through all my bus stops and ended up in Ulu Pandan if zep wasn't there to wake me up for my stops yesterday... even the walk home from the bus stop seemed like forever...i wished i could apparate...
ive been burning hot (no...i mean literally) since yesterday afternoon and my mum thinks she can cook eggs on my forehead... i HATE being sick... which means i prolly have to stay away from all the good food in the world and resume the bread-and-porridge-diet... ... sian diao.... and i'm perpetually in a semi-conscious state (i slept through all my tee vee last night...including all the finales of the soapy serials i watch)...
which means i slept 17 hours in a row... another weekend wasted... sigh...
ai yar(exasperated and resigned)... what doesn't kill me will just make me stronger... when i feel better i would have new B-memory cells...
when i feel better...
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
11:16 am
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if there had been better communication, we wouldn't have fought...
yet if we hadn't fought, i wouldn't have realised how important a friend zep is...
i'm glad we've resolves the perdicament...
and came to realise our mistakes...
whatever it is must thank two people...
ailin for making me realise it's necessary to love myself before loving others...
and my dearie for making me realise i'm in the wrong too...
p/s: yoo know like in all contracts they always say...it's important to read the fine prints!
zephyr said he'll make it up to me.... so i was just thinking... hmm...
how about a full body SPA in the morning with kairavi... followed by some manicure and padicure...then half a day of shopping...and finally dinner at riz carlton... all on ZEP's expanses...hehe...
and then they say it's imporant to read the even finer prints...
ahhh...i'm kidding about the making up part..actually...a 24 carrat diamond ring would do JUST fine, zep *winks*
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
1:49 pm
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tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
12:32 am
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*holds up table cloth* where are yoo...
Who will help me find my courage?
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
9:58 pm
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zhengie is the sweetest! Thank yoo!
and those that care so much about me! i love yoo guys=)
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
8:21 pm
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these are the times i wish shux would be around to talk me through my problem...wishing. and hoping. and dreaming. but then again i know it's not going to happen... part of me feels like calling up jie or buffy yet i don't feel like regurgitating everything to them...it's mentally taxing... as well as anger inducing...
i'm dreading school tomorrow... maybe cos i don't think it'll be a good day again... but i thought about what mrs chan said today... and i agree she makes sense...if i were to just skip school everyday it'll be really unfair to the teachers... it's just like we write "students" in the occupation section of those forms we always have to fill in... so it's kinda like professional ethics.
feeling quite lost and don't know what to do... i really cannot cannot talk to a person when i'm angry at that person...because i'm so scared i'll lash out and say something without thinking... i need time to think though stuff...calm down before i attempt to talk to the person... and it's not gonna happen if the person re-pisses me off every day....
hmm..i'm really at a loss...
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
12:31 am
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yet, being the imperfect person i am...i realised i couldn't stop getting angry and upset over it... and so i couped myself in the small cheery and very warm and stuffy consultation room on the 3rd floor in school and mugged all my anger away! ( i think it's an extremely effective and kill-two-birds-with-one-stone idea) and now i'm not feeling that pissed off anymore=)
i think i must learn to be more forgiving...and to entertain less evil thoughts in my heart...like hoping he would miss the bus or trip over his shoelaces... ahh...stop it! *shuns away those thoughts*
i've used up all my energy studying/ being angry..i shall take a nap and when i wake up i will be jolly again! wee*
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
5:17 pm
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it was so crowded and hot and everyone in front of me was so freakily tall so all i could see was the singer's spikey top of the head bouncing up and down...and some pple in front were holding up boards and stuff so once they held them up...that's it! and i was wearing heels k!! we stayed for half of the 2nd band's performance before we left cos really wasn't that good and it was way too hot to stay there amidst the sea of people... the 2nd band had quite a good singer but the playing wasn't that good... winner gets a thousand bucks and chance to showcase their songs for the NDP pre-parade performance. wah..
i drank bubble tea today!! nice peach milk tea=) *yum yum* then zheng said he wanted to get a shirt... that sneaky sneaky guy bought me all around J8 shopping and i was wearing heels... *massages my poor poor legs* and somemore everytime i stumbles he laughs at me!!!!!!! wah so good yoo wear lah!!! *grumbles* *stomps on yoor injured toes and runs away* haha...i'm ruthless *evil laughter*
i've been cheated... bought this pair of jeans that keeps getting bigger every time i wash it... it's like hanging on my butt now so it'll like drop with a couple more washes...zheng then suggested that i wear a belt...so we walked into esprite and i anyhow picked up one and realise it wouldn't fit my eleplant size hips...so i walked out the shop feeling quite demoralised... oh man...i need to go run or perhaps liposuction...but i heard it gives yoo ugly stretch marks and after that yoo have to go for this skin tuck thingy where they try and conceal the extra skin by folding it up and sewing it together... ahh..on 2nd thoughts i changed my mind...
went for the straits time recruit scholar's choice "exhibition" on saturday and it turned out to be quite a disappointment... it was so small and there were so little booths i could walk though the whole thing in 10 seconds! i don't know what i wanna be in future... i need career guidance...ahh i wanna be so many things i wanna be a doctor, a lawyer, a reporter, a business woman... see what i mean...i may as well go be an actress then maybe in my lifetime i can act as everything i wanna be at least once... brilliant idea...now i need to attempt to bribe mediacorp's CEO... haha...enough dreaming!
brady is simply getting more and more terrigible...stayed in school on friday afternoon to partially wait for my zhengie ( yar lar yar lar i admit can not?) and partially study a bit and i realise brady is damn scary... he would scare my toes away!
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brady takes a prefunctory glance at my work and say : " wrong already lah...were got this thing one" *picks up pen and pokes at my paper*
-tian grouchily corrects her mistake-
after a few minutes...
brady takes another glance.. " wah type calculator also type wrongly" *hold up finger* "i poke yoo arh"
-tian looks at brady in horror and an unprecedent terror looms over her-
after another few minutes brady looks again and loses patience!
*picks up pen and poke my paper again* " wah simple eqn also cannot solve arh!!!!!"
-tian looks up weakly eyes wide with shock and about to faint from fear-
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see what i mean!!! brady is like T-rex...*complains*
oh yea! i finally remembered you kai's name's called you kai..i didn't dare introduce zheng to you kai cos i forgot you kai's name... i'm so horrid ain't i?
*mumbles* back to sampling tutorial....
tian* says the night sky is in her hands///
6:12 pm
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